Yea ppl guess who Is back?
Lol, Kirthi is back
Actually I dun hav much to update on
But after some thinking to some things, I have got some answers to my qns
I don’t have the word ,”BEST FRIEND” in my life
& I don’t think I want to have that word to
cause I feel that word does not last long with me more then than the word “ FRIEND “
I still can feel it that, friends stay longer in my life then best friend
I don’t know why also, but I don’t wish to find the answer to that qns
I just gonna leave things in the way they are, may be they are better off in these way
Why cant I have some space to breathe?? I feel very suffocated here, now for the current situation. I feel that some times some words are better off left unspoken
Its true in my case
I m not whining but I m jus stating some facts right here
I want to do what I feel like doing
I m not asking for much, just let me say my wish then you can say whatever u want next
Nothing is going to go wrong by giving me just some time, to say what I want
I had interest on nursing last time
I seriously was like, “WOW” on the way they treat ppl in life and they way ppl treated them back in life
I too wanted to be one, but I m sad to say that I seriously lost the interest in nursing
Neither it is my fault nor would I blame any one for that
May be as times flew by, I just lost it
But after getting my results, then I realized nursing isn’t my cup of tea
Trust me, I took really a long time to decide what I wanted in my life
Cause I just couldn’t figure out what I wanted
The courses I was offered, some weren’t that appealing to me
But I am not only looking at my studies, I m also looking on how I m supposed to upgrade from there.
When I choose the courses I want, just to please some ppl, I did put nursing as one of my choices, but what m I supposed to do, when the page showed, “ CODE ERROR, UR NOT ELIGIABLE TO APPLY FOR THE COURSE”
Its not my fault when the page turned out like that
When I was choosing the course, I did told them, these is what I m planning to take
&& all they did was, to just nod their head
after one fine day, they came up to me & asked what I eventually took
when I said I took hospitality operations, they were like, WTH???
After I have applied for the courses & stuffs, then you come up to me & say this & that
What m I supposed to do for that
What’s even more hurting is that, when your own family does not want to understand what I want, except for my sis & my sis in law. My brother was very angry with me, just cause I never appeal for nursing in poly
But did he even asked me, why didn’t I do tat??
Nahh he did not, all he was just in a anger just to slap me
& what more can u expect it, my dad was also supporting him
I cant say much, cause yea I know, I led u ppl down
But this isn’t the way you are supposed to treat me back right??
When you do a mistake, you learn from it
As if I wish to go ite like that, they are blaming me
Please don’t get the wrong idea that I m talking bad about ite
I m not, let me say that again I M NOT
I don’t even look down on them, but actually I m proud of them
Cause in ite its more of an HANDS ON place
All you ppl can think, it’s a bad environment
But I find it as a stepping stone for me
What more can I ask for, just a bit of support from you ppl
Cant u all just give me that at least??
Yesterday, was worst
As I was walking with my dad, he was talking to me
This is how it started
Dad: if ite is expensive what u planning to do??
Me: ermm *looks at his face* I wld stop schooling
Dad: hmm good, so what will u do next??
Me: work
Dad: where??
Me: I dun knw, I have to find for jobs
Dad: why don’t u join army??
Me: *stares at the sky* wth, *inner mind* I dun have the interest in army
& what makes u think that I want to join the army??
Dad: its also good wad, if not why don’t u work in the factory??
Me: can we jus drop the matter??
Dad: silence
Just imagine, what if I had gotten a poly??
Poly fees are even more expensive then ite
What he is going to say about it??
I have made up my plans already
I wished to go poly, but sadly I could not make it
Yes, I m regretting now, but what’s the point when everything is over now??
Then it took me days, to make up my plans again
A new dream, a new path to go ite
As I was building in the sand, the wave swept it away
Shattering my dreams apart, leaving behind just the bits & pieces of it
All I planned was 2 yrs of higher nitec in hospitality op in clementi ite
Then if I do well, I can go poly & take up dip in hospitality op & resort management
But I guess its nearly crushed down
But I have not given up my dream
I just have started my path, I m not so crazy to destroy it & build a new life
I have decided, to take this course & move on in life
Not going to listen to any one more regarding this studies
Sorry if I m being rude or blunt here, but I m hurt & confused enough to come up with such an answer
I know some ppl are angry with me due to the decision I have made
But I guess u need to give me some thought too
I hope you would understand
Don’t worry, I wont led u down again
& it’s a promise
remember I have jus dropped
I have to pick myself up, & move on
All I need is just some time & support from all u ppl
In the end, all I have is just u ppl in my life
Family, cousins sisters, brothers, friends
I hope u ppl haven fully given up on me
I would prove to u ppl one fine day that I have done u ppl proud
Tats abt my current life
&& I so cant wait for the chalet
going to have fun, alots alots alots alots of FUN
in these 3 days,2 nights all I going to think off is only laughter, bonding & happiness
sorrows, unhappiness & many others all gonna be left behind
takkaire, loves all
`kiRthi
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