I promise... I will be back...

she came n tok to me today n she bought me n rani earrings
it was sooo sweet of her i love u mathevi
u shld see bhavani today shouting n making noise
sry barney *shows a pavam face to her*

all wen well i was sooo like didn't want to eat n stuff jus drank 100+ onli during recess
but aft tat i realli suffered alot.was freaking hungry ))):
my face changed n i neva smile or tok aniting
cos was having headache too

in between tis there came the problem for the day
TAMIL omg!!!!
i hav neva done both my paper 1 n 2 at the same time
for a while my mind wen blank
cldn't think anithing
then mrs subra was like u mus finish the compo ten onli u can leave
like wad the hell sial
i knw she was doing for our own gd but no to tis extend till i hate it
frm 2:30-3:30 was tamil intensive had a test which she said she wld count it n stuff
ten frm 3:30 till we finish our compo can't leave
i finished my compo onli ard 3:50 like tat
but before tat she left the class
errrrrrrrrrrrrrr
every1 was very pissed off wit her
like hw can she do tat???

aft tat ard 4:30 me,shabbie,mathevi,gowri,barney walked tot he 2nd bus stop cos
we were the last to leave the class
one by one left ad their bus came
mathevi took taxi meet fariz at his place
while the others left for hme

i m feeling soo weak nw tat i actualli cant type but jus wanna blog
tmr hav my CME presentation but i still haven do ani research waiting for my sis to cum bk hme n help me wit it.i jus plan to write in cards n read it out in class which i find it easier
jus nw vomited while climbing the stairs cos i was tooo sick n cldn't take it
but nw i feel a bit beta
lucky tmr dun hav much lessons onli tamil,eng,art which is 5 PERIODS
who0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0

I expect to pass through this life but once. If therefore there be any kindness I can show, or any good thing I can do to any fellow being lt me do it now and not defer or neglect it as I shall not pass this way again.

love.is….

Love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous.
Love is never boastful or conceited…It is never rude or selfish
It does not take offence and it is not resentful.
Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins but delights in truth.
It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes

Love does not come to an end.

Even at our birth, death does but stand aside a little. And every day he looks towards us and muses somewhat to himself whether that day or the next he will draw nigh.

You may be gone tomorrow, but that doesn't mean that you weren't here today.

Death row is a state of mind.

When you are born, you cry, and the world rejoices. When you die, you rejoice, and the world cries.

Life is eternal; and love is immortal; and death is only a horizon; and a horizon is nothing save the limit of our sight.

I said to Life, I would hear Death speak. And Life raised her voice a little higher and said, You hear him now.

Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful. It's the transition that's troublesome.

' it kills inside

I gave you my promise

on Thursday, January 31, 2008; 6:40 PM

thinking process

today actualli nothing to blog abt
but jus wanna blog cos m bored
as usual wen sch,had classes
haiz i dun knw y but today was realli a boring day
but i hope tmr wld be diff!!!!!
all of us were toking abt Valentine's Day
like who is gona be our date n stuff
i got totalli 4 dates!!!! who0o0o0o0o0o0o0o00
but to me its jus like another normal day
but to others may be different i dun knw
maths was fun cos we were doing graphs n doing sum file wrks
chem was interesting cos i got a hang of how to do the qns
n mrs pillai was like praising me
i was happy cos aft sooo long a teacher was saying smth gd abt me which made me proud abt myself.she said i was improving n i was eager to learn frm mistakes n stuffz
phy was glad cos u knw tat i understand the topic quite well aft getting coach frm shabbie
she made me understand well cos of it till nw i can't forget wad i studied

smth hurt me today
was she didn't tok to me properly like usual
i felt she was avoiding me so i left her in her way but y dun she understand me???
did i do aniting rong to her??? its gona be a wk since i tok to her
haiz y mus i be always the one getting all tis sial
was such a happy gal last time but due to fate everything changed in me

' thinking process

I gave you my promise

on Wednesday, January 30, 2008; 4:17 PM

say it together wit me,its called MONTU dayzzz

sry peepz cldn't blog ytd cos of sum reasons n 1 of them was my tiredness n laziness too
1st lets tok abt ytd!!!!
280108
the day went as per normal had chem test but i knw i gona fail cos i forgot sum formula n methods
haizzz
aft sch headed bk hme,was toking to mathan on my way bk till evening
wanted to blog ytd but the gundu mathan said dun blog nw blog later ten i asked y
he said who knws maybe smth gd may happen aft u blog ten hw???
i laughed n said aiyooooo
ard 6:30pm+ wen to bathe n get ready for tuition *it was my 1st day*
wad was the worst part was i hav neva seen the tutor before
funni n weired rite????

ten before i was going to go for tuition i received a call frm mathan,he col just to disturb sial
i tld him i was gona go for class nw,he said ok aft class msg me ten i wld col u i wanna say smth to ya..i was like wad is it n stuff!!! he said go 1st later he wld tell

ard 7pm i wen dwn for tuition it was like 2 blks away frm my blk...i wondered y can't the tutor cum under my blk???? wad the hell!!!!! i was practically searching for the tutor as i dun even knw hw does he look like??? at last i found him *gosh*

he was sooo sweet cos he bought me a curry puff *yummy yum*
i said i dun wan at 1st he forced me,ten i kept it aside n started to study
mean while i dun knw who was it but i kept having miss cols n msgz...n it was like my pocket was vibrating sial!!!! hahahaha but i didn't wan to check my fone as i knw if i check i wld be distracted
which i didn't wan to it to happen

during my tuition i had a argument wit the tutor for 1 maths prob
can u jus imagine i fight for tis oso??? lolx
i said my ans was rite he said no n was trying to explain ten i bet wit him saying tat fine tmr i wld go to sch n ask my friends n teachers whose ans was rite n y!!!!
he said ok he wld accept it i was like okae fine lah

2hrs wen slow u knw!!! my eyes were tired n i was gona fall slp any moment like tat
but at 9pm he said i cld go bk hme,so was carrying the whole lot of my bks n walking i msg mathan to col me,n he did (: *gd boi ah* was toking to him till i reached bk hme
wen to eat n continue toking on the fone till ard 10+ i was sooooo tired tat i tld him i wanna put dwn the fone he said cant,n said tok till 11pm i was like ahhhh???? cos i was very very slpy n my eyes kept shutting.ten i asked him smth,"i wanna ask u smth??" he said,"ok ask." ten i asked him," u said smth gd may happen later wad,i knw wad smth gd,the part my tutor bought me curry puff rite??" he laughed all the way like 1 kukudo even i was laughing aft i said

ten as usual i wen to bed aft putting dwn the fone wit the kukudo!!!
my johnny n i were taking positions to slp
he was like pushing pushing me to get warmness
i tell u ah he ponna cute la....my darllin guy is him

back today's topic
290108

wen to my class ten manju came n asked whether hav i done my geog hme wrk???
ten onli i rmb got such hme wrk n started to search for my book
i found it but i neva do cos i totalli forgot abt it
aft assembly mathevi was copying the wrk as usual if we neva do n in order not to get scolding we copy a bit here n there!!!! but her lucky time she copied during maths before mrs low came
ten i tld her lend me the bk aft u copy she said ya ok n stuff
there came mrs low i was like wad the hell??? nw hw n stuff
she was doing sum maths corrections on the board while i was coping under the table like u knw
multitasking??? jus like tat i was doing both my maths corrections n my geog n was toking to rani :P

i finished geog ten was doing my maths graph correction n was writing dwn my hme wrk n stuff
maths finished geog came was waiting n waiting for mdm azizah but she neva cum!!!! *yippy dooo* she was under child care mc it seems so,as usual mathevi me n manju were toking n singing songs our daily job but i love it though!!!!

was looking forward to P.E but i regret nw y was i looking forward to it????
cos its a sad story...here it goes my story of P.E!!!!
wen to the hall normal exercise like running n doing sum stretching n stuffs n was getting ready for table tennis
mr lim said there was gona be a test n he wld grade us frm A-F i was like aiyo tis 1 oso got grading ah??? laughed
was playing wit mathevi n rani but it was like 2 vs 1
mathevi n rani were together n me alone..jus imagine hw wld i play la sum more both the tall monkeys were together but its ok it was like a challenge to me
enjoyed playing ten mr lim was coling my name to cum n take the test n i wen to play wit my team consists of janine,li tong,me,andrea were playing while mr lim was grading
it was nt my fault but the wind was blowing tat the tennis ball wen in a diff direction wen i hit it
aft playing n stuff he jus tld me tat i was not fit to play table tennis on the table!!! guess wad i got an E grade for tat n sadly i was the onli person in my class wit an E as though it was my fault like tat.mathevi got C,rani got B * 1 vs 1,n there was no wind* but i didn't bother tat much abt it though

wen for recess aft tat.next was mrs raj's lesson the english!!!!
she gave us sum wrk to do ten i suddenly asked her,"mrs raj,hw long hav u been wrking here?"
ten she laughed,"class,guess wad??? instead of doing the wrk sum1 is cross questioning me??" n "guess wad the gal asked,hw long was i wrking here" the whole class was like who n stuff n was laughing.mrs raj said,"guess who said it??? our little kirthi" i was like no m nt little n stuff oh god she jus like errmmmmm haiz its ok m used to all this!!!! (:

peer tutoring was fun!!! n i love it cos shabbie was my tutor n she is a fun n cute gal la
i mean she teaches sooo fun that i cld understand n it helped me finished my wrk on time before 3pm.mean while i was doing mathevi was irritating me by telling tat she has finished n stuff n asked whether i wan ani help or not...she another 1 kukudoo

she gave me a shock saying tat there is tis sec 2 gal put all our pics in friendster n gave captions like raaba sial!!!!
for me the pic was my b'day pic la my friends gave me a surprise b'day 1
she put there,"celebrating our mummy's b'day" i was shocked
like wad the hell i dun even knw here n stuff but she did tis
aiya gona handle her tmr i think can't take it,jus now onli during recess gave her 1 big tok abt life n stuff,but there she goes again wit her nonsense

aft sch was in the bus,ten i realised tat i forgot to bring bk hme my maths text bk
cos i had hme wrk in it!!! sum more 3 graphs to do but i neva bring
tmr gonna kenna frm mrs low...m mentally prepared for tis cos it was partially my fault for forgetting my bk n was rushing bk hme

hmmmm i think today's entry is kinda very long but it was for 2 days u see
wh0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0 *gone crazy*
gona study soon jus do sum revision n stuff
dun knw y nowadays becuming like a gd gal once again
:P i knw its self praise but i jus felt like telling tat

kuku boo ((:

I gave you my promise

on Tuesday, January 29, 2008; 6:23 PM

Lost Words!!!!

wanted to wake up at 9am but i dun knw y but woke up at 8:45am
as usual wen to dry clothes,wash dishes tats my normal duties on sundays :P
was watching tv wit my dad n sis,ten wen to study my chem
cos tmr is chem test on anions & cations!!!! oh god m scared cos got alot of things to rmb!!!

m waiting for my sis to get up so tat we both can go n buy my 10yrs series bks
but tat loosu sis slping cos she is very tired ah aft eating pig la she but i still like her nonsense
m waiting since ytd to buy bks but no 1 is listening to me
tats sad rite??? but its ok
once she wakes up m going northpt to buy my bks n head bk hme =)

i hope tmr got sch sial,wanna go to sch
cos of the water pipe burst undergrd i m not sure whether its fixed or not
i checked the sch website it says sch resume on 28 jan monday
but i m not sure whether they hav updated or not!!!
but i wish mus hav sch tmr,weird rite????
i hav gone crazy i think cos last time i hated to go sch saying,"ahhhh mus go sch ah??"
"wah lau!!! i hate it sial" but nowadays totalli diff like,"yesh tmr sch mus go sial" or "can't wait for
sch tmr!!!"

maybe i changed for the beta or worse i may not knw
but as usual m jus leading a normal life bringing me all kinda of feelings
can't wait to go n buy bks!!!! lolx
who0o0o0o0o00oo0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0 *gone nuts*

tmr got tuition oso.1st day at hme m not sure hw is it gona be but i hope i can
study wit him
wen he col me the 1st time we got along well,was surprised actually
he made fun of my tamil saying i tok like a bombay gal 1st time
visiting s'pore like tat!!!! was soooo like argghhhh
mathan tells me tat m a tamil murderer!!! is my tamil tat bad???
oh god i think i need to improve sial
if not i think i wld die for my Os tis yr

durga can u like wake up nw..its like 2:08pm n ur slping
i can't slp in the afternoon but i dun knw hw she all slp la
mus go n ask her man!!! * sry sis but m sooo bored tat i blog abt ya*

got to run nw gona smack her ass sial
lolx nopes,i think best to pour water on her
*evil laughter* whahahahahahah
sry ppl i think i hav gone mad esp wen i m bored i go crazy like tis
the worse has yet to cum

' bumping lady

I gave you my promise

on Sunday, January 27, 2008; 2:22 PM

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I gave you my promise

on Saturday, January 26, 2008; 4:37 AM

A Day Not To Be Forgotten

guess wad??? i thought i wld be late for sch today but ended up being the earliest 1 there
lolxx....sitting there all alone frm 8:15am till 8:40am cos tats wen bhavani came
ard 9am ten every1 came for art class
it was soooo fun cos we were doing our engraving n its kinda col cos its in chinese wrds
ten today i was doing sum touch up to my stone n ya la
lata part the teacher was teaching us hw to engrave our names in the stone
n sooo cool cos i got a chinese name hahaha funni sial but difficult to write i mean engrave
time pass by soo fast tat art class ended..haiz but got sum wrk to do like to practice writing my chinese name n draw sum patterns

we wen ard asking for $2 change for coins to buy smth to eat
i was sooo shy to ask my juniors for change i dun knw y oso
in the end me n rani got change for $4 ten we wen to buy drinks,n sum tibits to eat
yummi!!!!

aft art wen mac to see nigel whether he was still wrking there or not cos of barney...
me,rani,& barney wen there but as expected he was not there
barney was sad!!!!
ten walked to the bus stop waited for 186,while waiting i was taking pics of bhavani hahaha she was sooo cute la
ten me,bhavani,rani took 186 n wen to rani's hse to see poobalan n to tok to him abt his O levels
but he was not there,onli his bro prakash was there
hhahaha there goes bhavani again!!!! sadoooo )):

waited for rani's sis n mum to cum bk hme
while waiting we were toking all kind of stories frm our birth till nw wad's happening n wad has
happened n stuffx
rani's mum n sis came,they were toking to us
asked us whether we got eat or nt n we all said noooo
ten she wen to cook smth for us
rani's mum is very very sweet sial,not onli her but her family too
nice ppl to be wit...we are 1 big family ((:

there cums mathevi,the tallest gal among us
she bought kit kat n sum twinkle choc for us oso
she very cute la,tall but 1 kuku gal
hahah sry mathevi if ur reading tis

wen the four of us get together we will forget the whole world
cos tats hw much noise pollution we are
self praise ah??? lol but its the truth
food was served yummi!!! yum
who0o0o00o0o0o0o0o0
it was damn nice even though she did it hurry bunny
but love her tonnes she like a mummi too!!!
while eating we were singing songs tat stared wit POO!!!
to irritate bhavani but she was laughing instead she is a kuku gal too
but i love tis bunch of gals my life n my property!!!
u hurt them u die!!! i mean those wrds

aft eating we had to go bk hme cos we were supposed to be hme by 3pm
so rani came n send us off until we got a cab
matz was sitting infront beside the driver lolx
while me n bhavani at the back seat
matz was dropping us at Novena mrt station
while in the cab,the driver was keep on looking at matz
she got scared sial loosu gal
she asked the uncle y was he looking at her ten he replied sayin cos he does not understand wad we were toking!!!! hahahahah
the uncle said matz look like 18 or 19yrs while me n bhavani look like pri 2 kids
wah we were laughing n saying tat matz is a mother of 2 kids while bhavani said she is a mother to us...ten we asked the uncle hw old does matz look like he siad 18yrs old,ten for us he said we look 15 but we tld the uncle we are 17 n are sec 5 tis yr
he got shocked sial..lolx
the uncle was funny,matz n him were having a nice conversation going
ponna funny sial
ten me n bhavani got dwn at Novena

me n barney were walking to the end,while walking tis indian guy was looking at both of us
cos i think we looked alike cos of our heights
lolx!!!
we took train headed bk hme

i reached khatib asked mathan to col n he col
was toking to him,wen to my cuz hse to take food for my dad n came hme
sadly no 1 was at hme )):
was playing wit johnny my sweetie pie,my lovess
came online,suddenly had misunderstanding wit him
i mean he misundertsood me sial...ponna hurting )):
he asked y added tat gal,he concluded himself tat i suspect him n stuff n wanted to msg the gal asking whether they were couples or not!!!
i tld him i added her to view her profile cos it was private
i tld him tat i got life n i dun need to do such a stupid stuff to msg n ask sum other ppl
i hate misunderstanding sial,wah lau
but i dun blame him,i knw he is gona read my blog he gona think its my fault n stuff
i mean cum on in life every1 do mistake at 1 point of their life is not as if every1 is perfect
sooo listen mathan i dun suspect u cos ur my friend la,plsh hav a basic trust on ppl
but i dun hate u cos of tis,tis is a silly matter

last but not least i wanted to blog abt tis at the end of my entry

today is my mum's 4th mth death anniversary
260907 ))):
i didn't knw time wld pass by tat fast cos today aready is 4th mth
mum i jus miss u ma
i hope u understand n knw tat i m typing abt ya nw
all i wish tat u are beside me nw,
lonliness kills mum a 1000 times
i bet u knw the feeling,as i jus think abt tis or type abt tis
tears r jus rolling dwn my eyes...
till nw i dun understand y u left me witout a single wrd amma
those days of my life were the happiest n wonderful moments
going out wit ya,hugging n slping beside ya,getting to eat ya by hands,being there for me those sad times..i jus miss those days mum
love ya dearest mum
missed by many,in tat many i m 1 of them
)):

i jus wanna say smth to all those ppl who are reading my blog
plsh treasure ya loved 1 frm now on
no point of regreting once they hav left u
cos neither can u see them or hear them
wen tat happens,its the worst moment of our lifes

all alone
)):

I gave you my promise

on Friday, January 25, 2008; 11:48 PM

water pipe burst!!!!

sch was terribly fun today
cos early in the morning they said we are dismissed early cos the water pipe in our sch burst
but we were dismissed at 8:30am jus like aft the flag raising
wen class for the teachers to col our parents n inform
mr anthony col my dad n he was toking to him
it was funny sial

aft that me,gugan,matz,bhavani,manju,durges,thein,fazi,rani wen to shaw plaza to watch THE HOUSE
its a thai flim...
the movie timing was 11:05am
so we had alot of time till ten,so we wen to eat at mac
not all of us ate onli sum

ard 10:30am matz bought tickets,but the counter lady asked for our ICs
cos its NC16 film
fazi didn't watch n she went bk hme
so the rest of us wen to watch
we kept changing our seats
in the end rani n me sat together alone
ten the others were behind us

it was not actualli scary but i kept screaming like hell cos the impact la
it seems its based on a true murder story
but nice la,aft tat gugan,matz,bhavani,durges,thein wen to rani's hse for lunch
while me wen bk hme cos it was late n my dad kept coling me

while in the bus was toking to him
he was entertaining me,i looked like a loosu cos i was toking wit my ear piece
so ppl who walked pass me thought i was toking to myself
but tooo bad i dun live for them,its my way of living my life

came bk hme,my sis MIA.she msg me saying she going to khatib for a while
so i switched on my tv to see wad film the putting,ten to my surprise it was my favo film sial
was jus sitting there n watching it while toking to him

ten i asked him to col me bk in a while cos was hungry n gona eat
ten ate quickly n asked him to col me again n he did!!!
he said he wanna change his bike colour so i said change to lime green n black
he said eeeeeee
hate him sial but wad to do my buddy wad he
had a fight cos of the muacks pic in his friendster
got angry cos he neva tell me tat he go gf sial
jus think hw wld a friend feel la,got ponna irritated
started singing all the songs which tells abt lies,love
he got irritated n said he is not att n its jus his friend
but i kept saying no la dun lie n stuff
poor boy got stuck wit me,but i believe him la
cos in friendship there mus be a trust if not its not nice
haha rhymes ah????
lolxxx

ten his wrk finished n tld him not to ride bk hme fast
hope he didn't too
he is a kukudu but a friend indeed
my punching bag hahahaha.he knws wad i mean
he said if i blog abt him,he won't tok to me animore
hahaha lets see ahhh
he is knwn as muslim boy
but he is a pure indian but i like to tease n make fun of him

hahaha sooooo fast the day is gona end sial
i m gona miss the day today
tmr got ART!!!! yippy doooo

m jus sooo tired n bored dun knw y oso
nowadays jus getting too angry n sensitive alot
i knw its bad but i can't control it seriously
like snapping the fingers my anger is jus like tat
1 snap wow 1 burning anger
((((:
but still living life as per usual
like everything is fine n normal
ooohhh god i jus wish it wld be like tis foreva
dun wanna any troubles,unhappiness,fights,problems n stuffs

bubbly boo
((:

I gave you my promise

on ; 1:41 AM

a day which made me think a lot

sch life itself is a fun n unforgettable moment of our lifes
so as mine!!! esp secondary sch life dun need to say its 1 out of a hell man!!!

Happy Birthday Senbu darllin

normal day, was fun as usual.adding noise to the pollution by singing,toking,disturbing
haiz i wish this days cld last us foreva but i didn't knw its gona be tat fast
cos its our last yr together in here...
i spend more time in sch ten at hme,if u notice

lessons today was fun esp art
cos ms hoe as usual ask us to exercise by drawing!!!
last wk was we mus draw our rite hand using our left hand
ten today use the rite hand to draw our left hand
kinda cool ahh!!!
aft drawing she ask us to compare our both drawings
i kinda like my left hand drawing its much beta ten my rite hand drawing
weird ah =)

for geog we wen comp lab to do our research but instead of tat me n matz were
searching for smth else,esp matz
she ahhh damn cute la
at 2pm rushed to the hall to see the O level results
it looks scary to me i dun knw hw m i going to go through it
wen i jus think of it,it jus drives me to my grave
OMG!!!

aft sch matz asked me n manju to follow her to canteen
cos she was hungry n wanted to buy smth to eat
she ah!!!
wen to snacks stall,she bought milo nuggets,hello panda,top choco,
ten to drink stall she bought egg tart
at the study area she bought sum more stuffs to eat
look at hw much she eats!!!
lolx but the way she eats ponna cute,the food wld be all over her mouth
like a small kid sial
but i still love u mathevi muackz =P

headed bk home
0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0oo0
=))))

dances ard mummi

I gave you my promise

on Thursday, January 24, 2008; 2:38 AM

as days pass by i wish i cld go oso

today was nothing la
but was fun cos of my friends which god created
all of us were rushing to finish off our maths graph if not mrs low wld scold u knw!!!!
lolx

aft sch wen mac cos of bunni actualli cos she wanted to see nigel
but he was not there,so me,mats,bunni,jojo wen to mac first ten gowri came
followed by manju n fazi
all of us were toking n making a hell out of a noise
haiz...even though all of us were laughing deep inside i knw
there is smth rong n smth sad
but none of us show it out

sum times i realli wonder y was i born
or if not y mus tis happen to me????
do i col it fate or my luck????
i wish i realli cld go off soon
but i will wait for the day
the unexpected day of my life

me =)

I gave you my promise

on Wednesday, January 23, 2008; 3:30 AM

loneliness in me KILLS!!!!

something jus for u to knw amma

would i eva get the chance to col u amma again??
m i even fit enough to utter the wrd??

you were jus too selfish amma
jus to leave me all alone in tis
world to struggle.Have u spared a thought
abt me at least?? Hw wld i eva be witout u??

you forgot that the minute u left me,
my soul departed wit u too.
m nw jus like a dead body wit my
heart jus beating...

260907 has realli made a great impact
to me ma.To see u laying dead infront of me jus shatters my heart
into million pieces,but u didn't understand ma

i feel invisible,like no one
wld eva notice if i jus suddenly
disappeared.i wish u wld knw tat

i didn't knw time wld be realli tat short
to take u away frm me.u always knew tat no matter
wad i can't live witout u,but u left me witout a wrd

all those ppl ard me tld me that,"Don't wry,
your mother is always beside u no matter wad."
but they didn't knw that all these were jus wrds

i can't feel ya presence or anything amma.
i can't hear ya laughter,see ya smile
listen to ya nonsense toking,can't eat the food
u cooked,can't go out wit u,can't see ya eating n making noise
like a small kid..i simply cant amma

you were always like a small kid to me
more like my best buddy,n not forgetting my twin
the pain in me,neither ani1 cld understand nor no 1 cld feel

i jus wanna say that i reall love ya alot n miss ya tonnes ma
i realli regret why did i fight wit u n neva tok to ya for 2 wks
before u jus left me allone all over again

i jus didn't knw hw to show my love towards ya
n i jus wasted it
i wish i can go bk to the same old place
where i grew in ya womb.
the place where got no noise,no fights,no nothing
onli i cld feel ya warmness n ya heartbeat
the day i came out & saw ya i didn't knw tat wld me my last 16
yrs spending wit ya.
if i had knew i wldn't hav cum out of that beautiful place no1 can eva buy
or go bk again!!!!

i dun knw y i jus felt like telling smth to my mum
n so i did
bk to nw as i m tld time heals every1
n everything happens for a reason

today sch wen as per usual
but i dun knw y tears started to stream dun my cheeks
the minute i heard the sound of the ambulance
i got reminded of my past all over again
in class i was sad cos today was thaipusum
n all i was thinking the way my mum dresses up,n she wld be the
last person to leave the hse.
she n her bubbliness no 1 can eva beat it

lessons wen as per normal
felt asleep in mrs raj's class
ooppzzzz
but i was trying my level best not to drop or sway sial
cos it will be embrassing
lolx
half of the indian population of smss
didn't cum sch today
lolllxx
other then tat sch ended fast,came bk hme fast
m damn tired

last time wen i cum bk hme aft sch,my mum's cooking cld be smelled untill outside my hse
she wld be there reading newspaper,watching tv,slping
but nwaday aft sch wen i cum bk,no 1 is at hme expect johnny
i wld be very lonely
sumtimes i wld cry cos of tis,cos i dun knw hw to express my feelings
i love u amma
ur the best n u will be the best mum in the world

' lost me
=(

I gave you my promise

on Tuesday, January 22, 2008; 12:18 AM

life is realli short

i didn't knw life wld be realli tooo short.i jus wonder y can't GOD jus take away ppl whom dun wish to live n make
those who wanna live remain....within 1 yr i lost many ppl one of them was my mum
losing her was like losing myself...i m living a life full of regret nw.jus cos i fought wit my mum for sumthing
stupid n she & i didn't tok for 2 wks,ten she left me all alone all over again
i knw the pain n feeling cos i wen through alot...endless nites,slp,tears jus alot.all i wish tat i cld see her again
tats all i wan...i wish i cld turn bk the time all over again

i miss her
i miss her voice
i miss her laughter
i miss the way she utters my name
i miss her cooking
i miss her kid in herself
i miss the way she dresses up
i miss the way she was
i miss the way she wrks
i miss the way she walks
i jus miss her
all i wanna is tat to see her n live wit her all over again

ytd morning i received a col frm gugan saying esh bro passed away
i was too shocked n cld admit the fact
he is jus too young to go n GOD was being unfair to him
wen eva i go his hse,he wld disturb me while the elder bro disturb jojo
he is jus tooo friendly tat every 1 jus respects him
even the sky was crying for him ytd
endless rain,friends,love,tears were all surrounded him
R.I.P bro u will always be missed n loved by many

today day wen fine but in sum of our mind the whole incident cldn't be
forgotten...cos for me i jus felt like i saw all those things happened for my mum happening
all over again..barney started crying as soon as she entered the class..the tears in her i can't
forget it....ten jojo cried cos she missed him...
hiaz life is realli too short

was doing maths test,mrs low said it wld be easy
my foot la i cldn't do it
i left the graph qns blank
i realli hated it wanted to cry seriously
aft sch me,barney,gugan,kaya,sree
wen to visit geevan
even though i didn't knw him,i jus wanted to see me to knw tat he is alrite
wen i saw him i cld not face him cos it realli hurt me alot,seeing the scars,bandage
tears i saw in his eyes omg i felt like crying
so i left the place n wen to sit outside
suddenly i felt like seeing my mum
dun knw y oso
aft tat wen inside again tld geevan by n left cos it was getting late n my dad was angry wit me
even nw as i close my eyes i cld jus see geevan in tat state n esh bros...
jus think tat i myself not even close to them but tears r jus starting to roll dwn as i jus think abt them
think abt those who r jus close to them esp esh bro
y is life like tat????

i hate life seriously

gona go soon
lost soul =(

I gave you my promise

on Monday, January 21, 2008; 3:26 AM

had ART today but it was fun & interesting.
doing chinese art was kinda cool u knw
actualli was PISSED since ytd nite cos of SUM PPL who didn't have life
& not onli tat i thought i was LATE for sch oso. stupid 855 was slow n late
but wen i reached the class i saw onli RANI.so we waited for the rest to cum
ten bhavani came.she was pissed too.hahaha wad a day for both of us!!!!

during art kanna was msging bhavani,it seems that he was cuming outside sch
to get calculator frm her cos AHEM AHEM....needed it for her hme wrk
it was soo kinda funni tat jus for her the guy cum outside sch was i dun knw wad to say oso la.aft art bhavani wen to pass the calculator to him ten me.bhavani & rani
walked to serene mac....

wen we reached mac there was tis guy named NIGEL...wow bhavani got sooo crazy over him...i tell u ah...lolx...so i col him n asked his name...ten he was like,"y ???" ten i point to bhavani n said "she wants to knw" ten he smiled n tld his name
ten there goes bhavani smiling all the way long.aft buying food n eating ten,wanted to leave but bhavani said lets sit for a while la n go...we were like laughing....rani was oso liked tis malay fellow but i dun knw his name cos i neva asked him =P

aft nearly half an hr we left the mac,but bhavani sum hw wanted his number
lolx crazy little gal la she...aft a long time n all those normal stupid stuffs we left the mac...took bus while traveling smth was runnin through my mind

the thing was tat,"why did GOD created friends for & who found the meaning of FRIENDHIPS & FRIENDS" since ytd nite tis has been in my mind..haiz

wen to meet senbu darllin cos she said she wanna pass my b'day gift to me
i thought it wld be smth small but i didn't expect it to be sooo big
it was a teddy bear.i wanted a teddy bear for my 17th b'day n balloons
i didn't expect her to get me such a huge bear
it was realli sooo sweet of her...& her b'day is cuming i mus get her smth in return sial
lolx...thank u senbu darllin *my pondatti* muackz

joy & happiness
=P

I gave you my promise

on Saturday, January 19, 2008; 1:24 AM